“The color of a perfect life is in variety of experience. Not choices made from careless risk, but those charged with curiosity, exploration, and the courage to sift through thoughts and feelings without the influence of others. ” -Amy Larson, amyjalapeno.com
Work your spiritual muscle.
Then be accountable and courageous in assuming the ramifications of that choice. Then make another one just the same.
The perfect life is one where you can lay your head on the pillow at night and think, I did everything I could, I exhausted the possibilities, I did my part and the best I knew how. Everything else is out of my hands.