What we do not receive and accept becomes a shadow that haunts us, lurking in the corners of our psyche until intense suffering cracks the shell of the ego, releasing us into freedom, so that we can
chose without blame
enjoy without guilt
play without boundaries.
Any happiness before that is ethereal and illusion. It will scatter at the slightest breeze of difficulty, at the loss of a loved one or ideal situation.
And the wide world of creativity is at your fingertips.